I have post once again in like a million years.........
Anyway holidays so many Course and camp and homework so sian......
haha and i got 54th place out of 764 shooters in the competition....anyway my team mem all lousy so lets not talk about it.......
PS:I post this post because KH(Khoon Hwa) said i shouldn't let the dead lie when i can revive it and because of Derick cause he said i was too lazy which i admitted.
So i decided to post one post and revive it for
ONE Freaking DAY WHOOOO!!!!
Got back more results overall i failed 3 subjects Eng, Combine Humanities and Pure Geography.
Well i guess results weren't rally up to standard but well i tried lets try to learn from our mistakes and change.
Eng d7, Chinese c5, Physics C6, Chem A2, Emath A2,Amath A1, Geog D7(i think) combine humanities F9.
Really i have way too many careless my physics 1 mistake first question whole of the following the 3b,3c,3d all wrong cause of that one mistake cause it was a follow up and there was seriously not enough time and the last question(i skipped some) the graph i drew and the first 3 question could get from the graph the ans -.-".
Sad chem melting point i put boiling point minus mark ask for charge i give the ion....
Eng first passage was a killer.
Chinese overall did well compared to my f9 in sec 2.
Geog counted ok as i have been failing and i only need 2 and a half more mark to pass.
Emath careless the laws of indices and negative never put negative and I DIDN'T STUDY SEC 2 which is like 1 of the paper most of it is sec2.
Amath Damn careless i know how to do and yet some mistake in my equation and i lost more than 6 marks anyway A1 is ok.
Combine humanities i did ok for the prose unexpected and the mocking bird i failed overall was a 24/50. SS wooo 22.............22/100 lol sian 11/50 24+11=35 lol failed like shit.
Wats with all the careless anyway today was quite ok...fun
Jingen was being sick so was Ginyang.....Jingen and his lesbian passage(the unseen prose) then got 1 part say "metallic taste the blood that seeps from me each month"
He go say the author taste the blood sick sia.Ginyang was un the gory gross go describe some car accident which he supposedly saw then ms rajah say she saw meat when she was coming to school 1 day but it was actually a suicide lol said she didn't know it was a body.she talked about an eye on a branch which she didn't saw but heard and it was way gross.
After school Campfire wood.Went to soak until 6+ there goes the problem again people playing and slacking come on guys CHANGE!i am trying very hard to change my squad i am also going to try to train the sec 2 to be more responsible so that they won't suffer a very long debrief.Joshua cute sia the kerosene very dirty then left there cause want keep then he went to pour water inside lol he like very blur like that every time in class ask question right after teach just answer lol.
After that went for Lifesaving did shallow water and deep water resuscitation, recovery position, rope throwing and practice abit on defensive techniques overall it was fun everybody wasn't so serious i really needed that break from yesterday.
will things change for the better?
Tuesday 20th May
Today was the day, the day we got back our test papers. Today was the day, the day CCA resumes.Today is the day, A day I will never forget.
Today we got back some of our test papers the results were good for some bad for some. Most of us were sad because of 1 subject or another .Overall my results were Quite ok except for Geog and physics. I just passed my physics due to some careless mistake and misjudge of time (1 question I had 1st question wrong and the rest follow up question all were wrong due to it).Geography even though I failed, I believe that I am improving everyday I got a 22½ for geog upon 50 that is and it already quite good as most of my CA for geog is most E8-F9.
Npcc practice….One of the most memorable one of all I may never forget this day. We start off as usual all the practice everything all was well until the hike briefing. We forgot to greet Jacquelyn as we were engrossed with the hike and maybe because of the exam break I guess that is one of the most common mistakes we made it has happened quite a lot of time if I do say so. We got a bit of scolding. Next memorable thing was our debrief it was um how do I put it quite long like and hour or so where half the time was scolding and the other half the time is punishment. My endurance and strength is still relatively low even though I have started swimming and I can do quite ok pumping since the day I started it has really improved a lot. Sometimes I really feel like a burden to the squad even though most of the time I am not the one making the huge mistakes but my strength problem is really getting in the way of my life…..anyway lets leave that for later.
My Reflection as an Nco up till now
My reflection as an Nco a HUGE topic somehow I felt like writing it even though it is a huge topic I don’t know where to start or end so I this should be short most of it would be about today’s training.
My roles and Aims. My roles I believe as an NCO is to train the cadet to be more disciplined to teach them what I know or in other words pass down my knowledge of what the previous batch taught us. And I finally realize today (20th may) my
real role my real aim not only as an Nco but more so as a Sec 2 squad i/c. Here is what I gained from my enlightenment. After 3 months and finally I know my role, my role is not only to teach the Sec 2 about
knowledge about Npcc but more so on responsibility as they will be taking the squad in another 10 months or so.
My squad. Generally, my squad is not really that far apart in terms of relationship. I didn’t realize that only today but also on many other occasions.
My squad isn’t the best out there but I
still love them today punishment I really had trouble breathing
Soon Kiat told Jacquelyn. That is one example. Another example today after the punishment some were walking out of school slow
Yeh Hang and Yuen yin went to the gate and
went to do with them. Yet another example I was feeling sick squat outside the gate the light turned green they crossed but they came back after that. Isn’t that enough examples to show that our squad bond quite well with one another. Sometimes I really wonder why I did the punishment with them like during the marksmanship badge incident where any one who didn’t get it had to do sort of a punishment. It was just a feeling that I and the others had to do it even though we got marksman.
It’s just another feeling that same feeling why they came back while they were half way across the road today because we care for one another.
Our problems. Somehow I really believe that we really
aren’t performing up to expectation of everything is it our
attitude? I believe that partly it is. Is it because we weren’t taught well in terms of character? I partly believe so but I am not blaming the previous batch I guess they weren’t strict enough well I finally realize why
they weren’t very strict. Been 3 month since I became and Nco, I have took the squad a couple of times but it is definitely
hard to be strict with them partly because of our
relationship as friends for the past year and we don’t want to lose that piece of friendship. Must be hard for Our CI to be scolding us all the time being hated is kind of a
painful feeling. I believe that the second part of our problem is our
immaturity how many of us can say that we aren’t playful not many most of the time we are always joking around and stuff which get us into a lot of trouble. Take today’s Punishment for an example Ruijie says that everyone is playing say the key is lost and such which led him to duplicate the key thus we got this punishment. Next our
sense of responsibility lets just take today’s schedule for example It wasn’t up as we thought we could put up on Monday but it was a holiday that day which kind of slip our minds. I
won’t say we
did nothing to salvage the situation we did at least call the cadets up to inform them about today’s practice. How many of us
do our parts in proposals? Another issue due to responsibility.
Lets we can just work together for another
10 months more to prove ourselves worthy of being NCOs 10 months can be counted
long or
shot depending on how you see it. Our squad isn’t small we Have what 18 people? We call just need to do a small part no matter how small it is just do our part.
Without a supporting role there wouldn’t be a lead role, Coexistence. Without a minor part where will the major part go?
As I said earlier OUR squad is well bonded however
we lack attitude and the sense of responsibility.
Ok haven blogged in a while....
ok not a while...very long fine.......who cares.....
Anyway Sec 3 this year has really been stressful. Not only on the exams part and studies but also for
CCA being an NCO is really not as dun as we thought many thing to do like proposals and stuff.
Just yesterday we had a meeting for Camp because our proposal um...lets put it in a more refine way was not so good(meaning
SUX) so we had to have a meeting to clear everything up when Wilson Sir was there everyone was um well behave and stuff but after he left like everyone started playing and not long like around 1 hr we did nothing and everyone well almost was playing and most left after 1 hr......We decide to bring home the work but i could tell you that we would not do it anyway.
Well lets go back to the exams
ok i totally screwed the mid-year haven't got back my results though.....i am prepared to say bye bye to my A1 in A-math and physics prepared to fail my humanities and Chinese and prepared to get an average mark in the rest
ok maybe i am exaggerating a bit. I got to say Physics was a killer i didn't even have the time to finish even though i tried to rush through the whole paper almost the whole of the last section was left blank and some of them said that Miss Wendy tan said that like More than haft the class failed which was um well i guess we already expected it.
Getting results back on
Tuesday just thinking about it makes me feel the nervous kind of feeling.
Hairs getting long i am so going to get caught for hair you should see my back its so damn long....
Ok that was way random out of nowhere
Ok the top sentence made me remember something.....
Opportunity is nowhere(nowhere)No where or Now here......pesimistic or optimistic well that made me thought about another thing.Most people say that they are unlucky but if you can see it in a differnt way then you might feel you are lucky and you might feel happy like somwone was shot they could say "why am i so unlucky to get shot" well another would say "WOW i am so lucky to survive"so like is all about how you see it your opinion counts.....So never give up just think positive.
Ok enough about random stuff.
Wed-Fri was post exam was boring but i guess we shouldn't complain cause the teacher put in alot of effort for these activity i just got that thought during a movie we were watching cause i was bored.Just like the camps we know its hard to organise a camp now but we didn't really know and didn't really treasure what the seniors had do to organise the camp.
Many CCa activity coming up course and stuff.Hike this saturday Lmsc, Camp and stuff.I finally realise my role as an NCO and Especially as a Sec 2 I/c Just got that thought while i was doing stuff.
~My role as a sec 2 I/c is to train the sec 2 to become the best to become NCO's so that they will be able to take over the unit properly and train the sec 1 and 2~
Well the sec 2 squad may be a small squad but i believe that they can become better they are now quite good if i do say so just some aren't so serious about their work and stuff. But overall i think i am in love with them lol....joking they are quite fun though.
Ok short post but who cares.
OK I just reached Singapore like 4 hrs ago like 12am somewhere there. Due to jet lag I can’t seem to sleep or is not sleepy right now anyway the trip was fun I am just going to write a short post to summarize everything cause I should try to sleep and get back into the time zone(yeh schools starting in like 2 days its Saturday 4am now lol)
So the flight is like 20 hr domestic flight between Washington and Newark 2hrs, Tokyo and Washington 12-14hrs, Tokyo and Singapore 5-6hrs so its an average of 20 hrs long flight….
When we were going there, there was a little problem and 2 student(me included) and ms leong have to take a later flight and we reach it we was like 1+am in the morning of that country.
2nd day we repair the robot a lot of problem will elaborate in next post
3rd day competition we saw blocks of ice small patches which were snow when we went to the competition location and team 1 won the think award we could have won too if not for the problem of programming and more in the next post
4th day we went around New York we went to the statue of liberty central park and a humongous toy store couldn’t go to time square cause we woke up late cause of daylight saving
5th day went to school it was pretty fun the people were nice more in the next post
6th day went to school again and cooked food for the Americans and it was a disaster more in the next post
7th day went to DeVry University it was nice more info on the school the next post and we went shopping at King of Prussia it was HUGE and I bought 2 Levis jeans for 56Usd cool huh
Anyway I should end here and sleep cause tmr is going to be a long day going to school in the morning if I have time I will go and help make the invitation cards for the Passing out parade and guess wat it 4:12 am
Wow 12 min to write a short post that too way too long must be because I haven typed for a long long long time in the US
theres gonna be 5 test this week so sian.....
Who likes test? 5 test in a week is way too much don't you think and its not like 1 day a test but some days there are 2 test at least if its 1 day 1 test spread out over 5 days its still ok at least its spread out i am sooo gonna die i can't seem to catch up on my homework and stuff like that i hate mondays and wednesday monday 1hr of math lesson 2 hr of remedial,2hrs of tuition math haiz.....
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Today CNY such a sad day
I have no idea why i am feeling this way
I don't know when it started but it was around last year on the lower part of the year.
Anyway the feeling is that i don't feeli that special occasions arent that special anymore that just my feelings anyway.
Anyway today was boring no seriously i stayd at home all day relatives came but didn't talk much. Just took out stuff and serve them.
My family just went down to run except me of course cause i dun feel like doing anything
Yesterday i went back to primary school saw ah pek there alot of the 6/1 went back 6/2 i guess didn't want to go cause they know that they cannot enter the school to see the teacher anyway yesterday school was just 1 chemistry lesson and then concert the concert was ok i guess first parents performing and teacher performing were boring until sthudents perform that when the fun begins wushu freestylers singing yeh the singing was funny Cao Cao haha they sing so fast sia its quite a fast song but the sing it was too much faster.
Anyways 3/5 is ok quite a fun class not reaaly as noisy as 2e but its quite fun with regular humor, who knew joshua is such a funny person and yeh hang so lame....The whole class is easy to go along with.
Ok so my decision is made i decide to go for the US trip and Miss my NCO camp......well its not always that you get to go overseas especially when you are poor and now i am getting subsidy and if i mean IF i manage to win something it would be worth quite alot of CCA points and it would be a new experience Its a regionals competition mind you but some how pahang camp would also be a great experience but nevermind i should think about my future first.
I should really change my blogskin its been really too long since i change it Sec 3 life is just was filled with test and its only the beginning of the year i woner how much mire i can take.
What song should i change it to Something tragic(no idea same as sad i guess)? sad(zi wo cui mian)? pervertic(sha shou)?
Searching for new blogskin....thinking of a new song to change to.
lol i just typed this whole post with one hand my head is resting on my other hand lol.
Well Happy Chinese New year everyone.
