Its been so long since I last
updated 1mth 7days? Oh well no time not in the mood too many feeling too little time to feel this whole mth been so different so much pain anyway the
Geog/eng com/eng/chin com/sci totally screwed them really not in the mood to study really not in the mood
This post is suppose to be 1 mth post should be very long right but nah can’t really remember much only some days some memories are left anyway my life had always been filled with misery fear pain.
This year had been the worst year ever anyway half year almost gone this half year was nth but painful memories sometimes I want to feel what others feel some of those people might look happy on the outside but are filled with sadness within. Like Ren hao say I have no worries but I duon’t know about that maybe its because I keep all that feeling righr inside my chest feels heavy.
I am like a Balloon Air is continuously being blown into me and I have exploded still trying to get that hole fixed with the scotch tape. Anyway it won’t hold long.
I don’t know how many times I have cried this year in the last 5mth actually only 4 mth plus beginning of 5th mth 6times? 7? 8? Who knows can’t even remember. I can’t control my actions my feelings. I want to run, just continue running till all my energy run out and get exhausted too exhausted to feel anything.
My feelings for the month April was like a roller coaster up and down up and down.
Help out at sports meet carrying the bottles the school had to be right at the other side purpose one lor then have to carry so far.
After that week the week was um quite ok I felt refreshed maybe because only 3 days study.
22nd April went to see the annual Npcc parade they change the location of meet never tell us then we went to BVSS change to Chai Chee. Went stadium change then watch the parade quite boring only about last part fancy parade then quite nice. Going back the chai chee girls sang on the bus like nobody business lol.
23rd April went to the Chinese thing bing lun went very early lor cause he say his time set wrong when I got there only like 4 people there .Anyway didn’t have any seat for us we seat also ask us let our seat for other people.Anyway at the back all of us not listening Khoon Hwa doing work then see ginyang play, GinYang do work for a while then play his pokemon, Yong han and yangzhang late come that time see ginyang play. Bing Lun and Jingen bullying Kenny lol Kenny damn lame lar.After that go home that time khishal was in the same bus he was with teck keong in front when the talk was on so cannot play lol.
I realize that when I polish my boots it gives me a lot of time to think about a lot of things
I realize that different songs bring back different memories
I realize that nothing is going right for me this year
I realize nobody knows me because I don’t say out anything
I realize my grades are going down
Now I would like to end with a quote from my beloved Soon Hui Sir “Don’t let anyone tell you that you aren’t good enough not even me”
If I can remember anything more then I will post it but for now that’s all.lol i started at 10+ now almost 1 liao lol type for so long cause i was watching show and thinking things that come truly from the heart
